I’d rant for a moment because a lot is on my mind. makes sense i thought. There is a difference between being self confident and cocky. I am a very self confident person I don’t doubt myself I don’t have low self esteem and I think because it is so fucking rare in todays society for one to have pride in themselves, self confidence has been mistaken for being cocky. It is a crime to think your not fat or ugly or all of the above or to carry yourself with respect and dignity. NOW, when it comes to certain things yes I am cocky for example, girls. That I am very cocky about and I won’t apologize for it. Sports is another thing, but it’s simply for the reason that if I’m not that way I lose all self motivation because I want to be the best. My attitude is not fake I am who I am all the time and it never changes. Do I think I’m better than others, no I think we’re equal unless you have given me a reason to think otherwise. I think it’s funny I get bitched about for being honest when that’s what people ask for. Yes I have become a very unattached person that has developed because I simply do not care. Another funny fact a lot of the people I know have made me become that way through out all the years and it does not come down to one person and I am not pointing a finger at anyone. I have enjoyed all my friendships I don’t regret any of them I’m just over the bullshit drama. There comes a time when we all grow up and realize. You fuck me over I don’t deal with you it’s how it is it’s how I protect myself. It makes sense. I probably won’t care about your feelings just being honest. I don’t care how long the friendship you kick me when I’m down I’m getting up and knocking the shit out of you and I’ll spit at you while I walk away. I don’t care. Now, I’m a nice person I may not sound it because of what I just wrote, but I really am just don’t be an ass or screw me over and we’re fine. Ah and now that’s off my chest, I had a pretty fucking amazing day. I have met the coolest people in the past few days. No lie. No bullshit. Now it just sucks I’m leaving soon. Went and saw my ex’s baby that was awkward yet also funny since I went with one of her other ex’s who is fucking amazing why couldn’t we have met earlier? Cute kid feel sorry for it though. It has been almost 9 months with my baby I love her to death, honestly. I would do anything for her. I don’t want to leave, but I’m pretty damn sure we’ll make it these two years and it’s a topic we have covered backwards and forwards because we both agree we don’t want to waste any time. Well I think that’s all on my mind at the moment I’m off to sleep, I have a job interview tomorrow so sleep is important. Good night.